What comes 1st the chicken or the egg?
When you understand this step, you have already had your spiritual awakening.
Shazzammmm!
Yes it has happened we have indeed loved you until you can now love yourself and you do because you have started to honestly give it away ( because now you have it to give away) .... and that my friends is the surest sign that God is doing for you what you cannot do for yourself! When in doubt about how your 12th is going, simply check your motives.
Remember the poor unfortunates?
Thank God!
Keep Thanking God!