Jesus said we need but the faith of a mustard seed. A perfect example from a perfect man. The tiniest of seeds yields the largest of trees. It is what will happen in our lives if we can just..

This is the same way we see it in the rooms. We see them come in.. the doubting ones... even myself! “ This will never work!” I muttered.

Nowhere men going nowhere, then miraculously revolutionized into action with a new found faith that leads to a joy beyond their wildest dreams.

Really?

I guess I needed to understand that the reason I did not believe it would work was because nothing in my addiction had for twenty years. Why was this suppose to be any different.

I did not know that by just putting down the drugs and alcohol God was racing in to open my mind and heart up to his Love because I had finally become willing to allow clarity. I had reached that incomprehensible demoralization and by the grace of God I was finally able to surrender to self.

Of course that day which I thought was the worst day of life turned out to be the very best. I was truly a man walking backwards when I can in. The 180 was not only necessary at that time, but imperative in order to maintain life. Yes it had gone that far!

I had forgotten my greatest truth that God really did loved me unconditionally.

I forgot that if I surrendered myself to him once again, that power greater than myself, His Love, would carry me to a wonderful new place and take me much further than I could never ever carry myself.

because I had forgotten these things through the fog of alcoholism and addiction

because I had forgotten these things that all the others in the room spoke about

because I was so broken by my addictions

I needed the critical ingredient...

Faith

How much faith do I need I wonder?